world's cutest halloween costume

bahahaha so cute...but doesn't baby cramp up?

Which is Worse?

I don't think I need to say anything more.

I found a kitteh. an i wan eet.

Her name is itsy bitsy mitsy. I would change that...

Aslli Filinta

asli filinta leggings. wonderful designer. kind of wacky.

Dolce and Gabbana Wedges

Stefano and Domenico do it again. Simple, but absolutely elegant with an edge.

Acne Jeans f/w 2009

I could watch this all day long

Os Gemeos Mural

To replace the Keith Haring's Mural on Houston at Bowery. Absolutely beautiful. Dedicated to Dash Snow who recently died of a drug overdose.

Saimon Chow

i don't know whether to be weirded out or love this. either way it strikes emotion. his other illustrations are fantastic too here's a another:

Okay let’s see. Update time. I went to the hamptons two weekends ago. It was amazing to be outta the city. It’s nonstop there though. Boozing all day long. I was like can I get some coffee I just woke up. I’ve been slowly furnishing the apt, pics to come when it’s done. Going to vents and such at night now, not so much into the club scene. It gets old. Fast. Christina’s back in philly again so im just job hunting, painting, exploring the city, and going out to dinner and private parties at night. I can happily say that I’ve met a ton of great people lately- interesting, creative, down to earth, funny, just real. Sometimes I forget they exist because of lot of my life is interacting with people without really getting to know them. I don’t know when im coming home. Im the only person from my high school, and one of the few from college, who stayed in the city for the summer. You cant tear me away. This is my home now. I'm going to the hampton's again tomorrow for the weekend, yay. This past tuesday was mark and eugene's bday at tenjune so they had celebs and performances and whatnot but my fave was method man and redman they just tore shit uppppp. my internet is down at home so im at school, which is conveniently located a block away from my apt haha. i'l type up some legitimate, long update and post it in the next few days but right now i just wanna go back home and paint. peace and love.

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Went to the hamptons last weekend. nuts. im starting to legitimately know everyone in new york city. weird. here are some pics of the new apt- pre furnishing of course

SO LONG

Oooook I've been pathetic with updating. What was that like 3 months? Never ever ever again. It was a hard three months though, a lot of questioning plans, life, etc. But I can wholeheartedly say I'm back in action.

Let's see, I went to Mexico in March with Christina and her family. I had the most AMAZING time ever, it was so relaxing and they were beyond kind, funny, and generous.
mmm poooool
hella little waiter man. "dos mosquitos?" "si." agouti aka rabbit rat creature that likes the sound of falling fruit...
me and cassie (christina's sister)
sand bags that they put in after the hurricane
nice....feet...
looking busted after starting drinking at 10am sosososooooo much coffee on that trip
we had fun chasing agouti and feeding bananas to the iguanas and ordering room service. we ate so much that i pretended i was pregnant and pushed out my stomach and everyone was giving me REALLY weird looks. "Who knocked up that poor childdddd?"
Mama came for my birthday. I turned 19 on April 13th. It was a fabulous birthday and I stayed at Monica's with mom while she was here. It's weird when she visits because before I lived here NY was "our thing" and now I'm showing her around. Oh how things change.

Uhhh I have a bunch of random pictures from going out... enjoy...
fierce.


loulou is hiding on the left
I haven't a clue who this girl is...
So I found us an apartment on NYtimes.com and it's in Greenwich Village and it's amaaaazing. We're moving in now, pictures to come once it's furnished.

quality versus quantity

School is kicking my ass. I'm so passionate about every class so I refuse to let myself EVER skate by because the bare minimum of acceptable is excellent.

Last last week was nuts. On Tuesday I went to the Giant's Superbowl party at Tenjune. I was accidentally smacked in the face by one of them (with his Superbowl ring, mind you) and he proceeded to take off all his rings and kiss my face again and again. Creeeepy. I also saw Nelly (again) about 2 feet behind me. My friend was like heyy meet my friend Paul so I was like "Hmm, okay, I guess." The guy's like "Hi, I'm Paul, what's your name?" And it turns out to be Paul Rudd. Short in person.

I also took shots with Wilmer Valderama last last Thursday because of his Birthday. Again, shorter in person... Friday I went to the men's DNA end of fashion week party. amaaaazing. Definitely got confirmation (about a rumor) that one of me and Christina's favorite male models is super gay. He's adorable.

Okay, out of the nightlife...It snowed last Tuesday like MAD! I came out of my Italian class and it was like a freaking blizzard. Thank god I'm a genius and wore suede mocassins to school that day. Not.

I'm so sick of living with 3 other girls I coudl scream. I cannot express how hyped I am to live with Christina next year. It's just me and her going to Florida for Spring Break which is super exciting because we'll be able to lounge and I'll get to know her family. I'm going to start volunteering at this place (conveniently nearby) where my job is to play with, coddle, and educate toddlers and infants who are waiting to be put in foster homes or be adopted. I miss how in Seattle I had to much time to explore the city, do my school work, create art, volunteer, see people, make phonecalls, answer emails, and actually get some sleep. So I'm working extremely hard on how to apply those things to my life and if that means I need to take a step back from my friends and be more alone, I'm willing to do so.

2/14: Christina and I are going out to get sushi and exchange Valentine's Day gifts because #1 she's like the love of my life and #2 because my Valentine/guy is a surgeon and is away for work. It's funny living with other people actually makes me care about silly things like Valentine's Day.

yone I miss the fam. I don't want to be in Seattle I just want to see everyone. I keep having really weird dreams about everyone, including my schmittens.

As far as classes go, I'm sending good thoughts to everyone in our new "Love and Kindness" practice in Meditation. We trickle down the chin of someone you love or admire, yourself, someone who's neutral, an enemy, a group of people you belong to, and a group you do not. Sending thoughts of health, happiness, safety and ease. In Journalism we're reading In Cold Blood (amaaaazing) and I'm focusing on writing an editorial about the taxicab credit card scam (). My Italian teacher still loves to pick on me and I love even more to be on my toes and fire back with the right answer. Mu writing the essay class is workshopping out essays about the preparation and process of a certain food or meal, which mine, of course, is about my and Christina's ritual of getting sushi together. In Political Economics we're transitioning from Econ 101 and history to the discussion of developing third world nations. Fashion Marketing, while somewhat bland, is one of my favorite classes because the teacher is a total kook and the class makes me feel like I'm doing something relevant to my eventual career. We watched the sickest movie about classic Hollywood and the evolution of costume, trends, and the influence movie stars (not stupid celebutants) had on fashion and the success of a designer or trend.

Now some random pictures... christina being adorable... building a wall to lock loulou in me being silly on the phone gabby hiding from the camera. check out the artttt a painting gabby made for the dorm

Adventure Day: On Wednesday I didn't have class until 4 so I took the subway to the NY Public Library on 42nd and Park. But I got off at 53rd and 5th and walked there. I was literally left speechless. It's probably the most amazing building I have EVER seen in America. The marble and wood carvings, phenomenal paintings and immaculate gilding are just overwhelming. Not to the mention the size of the building. I highly suggest that if you are EVER in New York City you go and spend a few hours in the library. Then I went to Grand Central and walked around the market. I love how when you walk through the smells overlap. One minute it's fresh flours, then cheese, then spices, then coffee beans, meats from Italy, fresh bread, fish, cakes, and everything in between. Then I just decided to walk back to school because I had time so I walked down 5th to Washington Square (50 blocks) and went to the NYU library and got some books. I also got a NY Public Library card at the library on 20th street and went to the farmers market at Union Square. Then I tooled around the lower east side, went to Whole Foods, and discovered an adorable new market to buy produce at. I swear there's nothing that I need more than to take time for myself to do these kinds of things. In Seattle I would get so creative with random places to go so I'm getting back into the groove.
trees at madison square park... sculpture garden anyone? i spotted the same rocking horse i had when i was little :) a white pigeon? whaaaaat?

It snowed like MAD last night. Christina and I were at Marquee and wanted to go and our friend Eric was like, "No, no it's like a blizzard outside," and we were like oh well and left. IT WAS SNOWING SOOOO HARD! I've never walked in the snow in heels before and I hope I won't have to many more times in my life. Then today I went to the doctor for a checkup and it was snowing even harder. It was a little miserable, but made for some great photos.

haha i love you marquee walking back from marquee hahaha untoucheddddd union square union square again moon deck! random tree shot snow piled uppppp tasty.

I know too many people now and it's making my life stressful. Who would have known.

Randomness: -I HATE being able to google whomever I'm dating and actually find info. -I'm no longer thrilled at drinking out of a $10,000 bottle of champagne -No you may not try to make out with me 5 minutes after meeting me. -What the hell are all you models doing out at 4am totally shit-faced? YOU HAVE 8AM RUNWAY SHOWS! -I'm going to become a nun. Haha. Except not. -Lastly, I had a dream where we got a puppy and when I woke up I was very, very disappointed. Need food. Guhhhh.
xoxo

Guhhhhhhh

My New York high has hit a low. I'm angry, stressed, bored, and bitter. I love my classes and I love the city I'm just soooooo sick of having roommates. The lack of respect for my stuff and my space sickens me and I'm ready to move into a one bedroom apartment with Christina NOW. I stopped going out so much which has been fantastic for both my body and mind. I feel like an actual member of society and am so much more motivated to get out and enjoy life. However, I've been losing weight from not drinking and from the cold so even though I feel detoxified I'm feeling the harshness of New York beating down on my body so I've got to figure that out...

I'm also sick and tired of the negative people I meet at clubs and whatnot. It's just amazing how people can live their lives so low and be content. Case in point last saturday I saw someone who I had met a few days before and met his wife (they're young) but when I saw him again he told me he had an open marriage and it was his one day a month to go crazy and wanted to get a hotel room. I literally almost threw up. Words cannot even describe how much that disgusts me, especially when people think it's actualy feasible. Gagggggggg. Whatever, it's a good thing I keep my guard up and will not tolerate even being around people who find disrespectful and dysfunctional things like that normal.

Today, I took a "me" day since I didn't have class and tooled around the city. I just went to get books but I ended up going to the farmers market and buying some local apples for 1/3 the price of grocery store apples. Then I ran into a friend and got coffee, then got books for school and shopped around the village, Union Square, Broadway, and East Chelsea. I took my time and started noticing buildings I hadn't seen before that are on my usual walk, got a delicious cinnamon tasti-d-lite, and tried my hardest to not go into any stores where I might end up buying something for myself.

Guhh it's also fashion week starting friday so the city is crawling with models. I've dated enough male models in the last few months to know they're best to be avoided unless you want some fun. I'd love to actually date someone legitimate but it's hard because I don't trust anyone, especially after getting involved with people from the nightlife that made me realize just how much I value myself and demand constant respect.

I offically feel like a starving college student now. I have NO money and I'm starting to eat the most random crap from the cabinets to survive. Like a can of black beans and some fruit leather (not together) followed by stale rice cakes or energy bars. Like really, who eats like that? I was so spoiled at first, but stupid, stupid me for spending my own savings (and by spending, I mean draining) on eating quality food when all along I should have been budgeting and eating less. Everything is a lesson learned.

Christmas, new classes, life in general...

Alright it's been FOREVER and I'm not going to go this long without updating. I'll try to throw something on here every couple days because life changes that often. So let's see I had winter break from December 21 to Jan 15 which was wayyyy too long and I'll never go home for more than 5 days at a time (sorry familito). I was just excruciatingly bored and depressed from the weather. Before, when everyone asked if Seattle was cold, dark, and rainy I would reply, "No! Seattle's gorgeous and it really doesn't rain that much!" Yeah, that's a lie. I just didn't know until I got out and went back. I'm pretty sure there were days where I would lay in bed on instant messenger with Christina for like 16 hours, only to get up for one of my countless doctor's appointments or for a snack (I'm secretly 5 years old). Anyways it was great to be back and see people and have snuggle time with my mama, but truth be told Seattle brings up a lot of negativity and even though it's where I grew up, it's not my home anymore because I've established a somewhat ramshackle but nonetheless individual life here.

Ughh, enough being deep. Although it'll come up later in this entry I'm sure. Okay here are some sweet pics from Christmas and Christmas Eve, woooooo, enjoy.
So the whole Heath Ledger thing was really weird. I know this is kind of off topic but I saw the abulances swirl around me on their way to his apartment on my way home from school tuesday, which hit me in a new way because I'm not used to those types of things happening where am I. Usually you just hear about something but it's thousands of miles away not next to you.

Anywaysss, my new classes are awesome. Here's the description of each one: Buddhist Meditation: This course examines the origins, history, philosophy, and benefits of Buddhist meditation. Students learn the fundamentals of developing a meditation practice with the goal of learning how to apply these principles to their everyday life.(There's a girl fro degrass in my class)

Writing the Essay: Setting a Fine Table: This advanced writing course considers our love for and obsession with food. We indulge in it and abstain from it. It makes us sick and it heals us. We worry over where it comes from and serve it during our religious rituals. We pay a fortune for it and we give it away. Its preparation is a science and an art. Through a consideration of a variety of food writing—from primary sources, cookbooks, newspapers, magazines, and journals—this course asks students to consider the many, often contradictory, roles food has played, and continues to play, in culture, and through a process of writing, workshopping, and the all-important rewriting, to have their own hand in the kitchen of the essay writer. Readings include essays by David Foster Wallace, M.F.K. Fisher, John McPhee, Ruth Reichl, Felipe Fernandez-Armesto, and Michael Pollan.

Intro to Journalism: This course develops students as rigorous critical observers of the world, arming them with the tools to become resourceful reporters and writers of originality and flair. Students explore various genres of journalistic writing, in both the field and the classroom. Through research and reporting assignments, they train in gathering information doggedly and thoughtfully, and through readings, discussions, and writing assignments, they hone their craft: learning the nuts and bolts of the form; working on prioritizing information and making every word count; studying the voices of established writers; and examining journalistic ethics and the increasing presence of Internet media. Students focus on journalistic readings, and on executing and workshopping several short writing assignments in different styles. This course complements the student newspaper, The New School Free Press.

Italian 2: I'm gonna say this one's pretty self explanatory.
Political Economy of Development: This course explores the interface of political economy and economic development to analyze certain key issues in the global economy, viz., uneven development, income distribution, poverty, class, gender, environment, and ethics and economic justice. Contemporary schools of thought in political economy and economic development are introduced to provide critical understanding of these issues and to examine some alternatives to the current economic practices.

Fashion Marketing: Couldn't find the description because it's at Parson's, but again pretty self explanatory.

That's a lot of reading. Here are some pictures of Paydn and I when he and Dad came in October. I miss him :(



So an update on the clubbing and celebrity scene. I went "balls out" the first week back and I'm pretty over parties and clubs etc. I'd rather just chill with people I like and not be treated like a walking piece of ass. I've gone out this weekend and thursday night I saw a bunch of old friends and then partied at Marquee and saw Paris Hilton haha. Ironically the next night I partied with her brother at Tenjune, that kid is a hot mess. Went to the Beatrice Inn on Thursday too, that was pretty sweet, Lindsay Lohan was there 24 hours after me, I'm not too disappointed I missed her though hah. Uhhh, Christina (aka the love of my life) and I saw Anne Hathaway at whole foods yesterday and was in line with her and next to her at the checkout thing. She's completely adorable and seemed to normal, especially the things she was buying with her fiancé. Also saw the hottest model in the world (Chad White) at Kiss and Fly last night and danced with his friend (who will go nameless but yes he's in the top 50 of models.com) for a while. This is disgusting, name dropping is so tacky, I'll never do it again haha. Dating male models is funny too, I've had my share and some are the sweetest people and some just make me laugh at how ridiculous they (think) they are. I got really belligerently drunk last night though to the point where if someone had tried to fight me I would have jumped on them and killed them. Haha, the other night at Marquee some Bulgarian guy kept grabbing my ass and I got like an inch from his face and said, "If you touch my ass one more time I will literally slit your fucking throat," hence the ass grabbing ceased. Lots of awkwardness when you're out at night and there are multiple people you've dated and other people that are currently try to date you (or whatever). I don't know, I'm enjoying my newfound stuck up vibe, where if you cross my boundaries you will pay for it and I'm simply there to have a good time.

I have more to say but now I'm going over a series of extremely unfortunate events in my head so I'm going to do some yoga. More to come after I digest last night too. I' thinking this roommate situation is going in the shitter too... and fast.

guigaaaaaaa

I’m on the plane home now. I’ll post this when I get home. As in my lovely bed in Madrona. My god I can’t wait. Dad moved into Seward Park on Tuesday. I don’t know if I’m ready to go back there. Well at the very least I’ll drop by tonight after I land and pick up my baby. I miss the benzo, I know it’s been 4 months but I can’t wait to drive along the lake in the dark. Ahh sweet memories.

Not this last week but the week before was kind of celebrity filled. Last last Saturday we were going a club on the upper west side and Michael j fox was leaving his hotel and almost mauled me because we were just trying to get by the crowd of people but (although super short) he was super sweet and apologized. Tuesday I partied alongside Michael Jordan and Jay-z (and lance bass from nsync hahah). Then Thursday timbaland, and I actually hung out with, meaning drank, smoked, talked with Kevin spacey. What was he doing at tenjune? Beats me I was like this must be so awkward, you must be over this. Then on Friday we saw padma from top chef.

Let’s see. It’s so freaking cold with the wind chill that it’ll say it’s 27 degrees when I walk to class in the morning but the windchill makes it drop down to about 19. I’m going to be sweating in Seattle. The other day I had a bunch of time between classes so I went down to this store in Soho that Paydn likes but lo and beyold it was 10am and the store opened at 11:30 so I had time to kill. And it started snowing. And it kept snowing and blowing and I walked back to class so fast after I holed up in Bloomingdales drooling over shoes while the snow turned into rain and back to snow. When I woke up the next day the lower part of my face that was left exposed by my swanky Russian hat was completely chapped and peeling. It’s still bad but getting better slowly. And I did manage to wait for the store to open, get something for paydn, and trudge back to lang for class at noon.

Dammit, it’s freezing on the plane and I’m too long to be able to sleep on my tray table without my back arching like some sort of quasi modo freak. Not like I need anymore strain on my back after carrying a huge duffle like a backpack and my laptop bag and pulling a huge suitcase to 14th street station to take the subway to JFK earlier. God I can’t wait to get home and get some maintenance going. Haircut, let my feet have a break from heels, sleep, refrain from consuming alcohol, well I’ll try at least. The hype for being home will die after like 5 days when I have a fatty meltdown from missing the girls and new york. I can’t believe I’m going to be in Seattle for New Years ughhhh. The parties I was invited to in NY were insane. Totally nuts. Wahhh. It’s crazy how the city sucks you in. When I’m in Seattle I feel like I’m drowning. I can’t relate anymore and I feel so disconnected. I mean sure it’s “home” but even with 18 years there, my life in New York is MY LIFE. It’s separate, it’s my own existence, and it’s where I plan to establish my home base. I’m super nervous about seeing friends from high school because (yes this is a generalization, an assumption, and speculation from others) most people are exactly the same still since it’s only been a semester. But I’m not my old self, I lead this insane life and I can’t talk about it because it sounds so freaking pretentious. People think I’m trying to impress them with my stories and it pisses me off because fact is fact and the insanity has been normalized so for me it’s just daily life. What would I have to gain from telling people about my experiences other than some sort of relation? I’m sorry, I don’t need the validation from others nor do I feel the need to brag, but when people ask, I say it like it is. And if you think I’m being an ass, well I don’t really care.

It’s too bad my stories from partying don’t make it in here. They would make for a hell of a read. Maybe I should start an anonymous blog, hell I’ll just write a book. I love my life.

for your pleasure. found this on the internet.

I feel guilty, it's been too long.

Okay, where to begin…

Well I ended up going home for Thanksgiving at the last minute! Gabby and I were going to stay here and go out to dinner together but she decided to fly home so she flew me home on stand-by. I felt like such a big kid because I decided to take a 7:40am flight on Tuesday the 20th rather than at 6pm so Monday night at 9:30 I had to scramble and get everything done so I could wake up at 4am to get to Penn Station. I didn’t mind walking to the ATM to get money for a cab with all the crazies and homeless people hanging out everywhere, but I did mind not knowing what to do in Penn Station. I had to ask this really sweet couple for help and they walked me through everything and sat with me on the train to Newark.

Anyways, all went well, I made my flight and found my way home. I just about gave my dad a heart attack when I knocked on his door (unannounced) on Tuesday night. Also, walking in to see the aunts at Thanksgiving on Bainbridge was hysterical. I was so excited to see them! It was a great short trip home and good preparation for being home for winter break. I also got a beautiful camel colored wool coat for the weather here and it has come in quite handy as this morning it was 20 degrees with the wind-chill making it feel like 9 degrees (according to the weather channel).

So last week was bizarre. On Tuesday night I had a weird pain in my stomach and couldn’t get to sleep. On Wednesday morning the pain was still quite severe and during my 8am class I started to panic about what was wrong because I was achy all over my body, had a fever, headache and a cough. So I made the conscious decision to leave class and go to Health Services where I luckily ran into my doctor who was on her way out for a meeting. She quickly ran some tests and checked me out then sat me down and told me I needed to go to the Emergency Room because I might have appendicitis.

So I gathered my bearings, called Loulou to meet me at St. Vincent’s and hopped in a cab. I hate dealing with people in hospitals for check-ups, but when you’re crying from fear and getting yelled at for not having “the appropriate reference street” it’s a whole new level of hatred. I finally got to the right place and checked in and all that goodness, got in a gown, in a bed, got an IV in my arm, drank a liter of purple dye and crystal light for the CT scan, got prodded by 5 different doctors, al the while crying from terror, being overwhelmed and in pain, and needing my mama. All in all I got 2 CT scans, was there for 7 hours, and was diagnosed with an unruptured ovarian cyst (which came with all the super fantastic side effects, wahh.)


loulou caught me enjoying myself. What no grey goose? Daaaaamn.

So that was pretty freaking scary. I’m just glad I didn’t need surgery and I’ll just have it monitored and learn to deal with it. On Saturday to do something happy, Christina and I went to Rockefeller center to see the Christmas tree. It was a freaking MAD HOUSE! It was a lovely 30 degrees and people were swarming the tree and the whole area around the ice skating rink and the surrounding 5 blocks, haha. We were going to spend more time up there but it was pretty overwhelming and got way too cold.


the tree!!

I hope they’re getting their $40 worth

love of my life

sponge bobbbb

giant lights

giant ornaments!

I had a great weekend though (last weekend), I felt like things were going my way on Saturday. Not only did I sleep a ton and go to Rockefeller Center, I found $20, managed to clean this huge black stain off my brand new gray suede boots, got the number of one of the world’s top male models of all time, met Alessandra Ambrosio (victoria’s secret model), got invited to a party in the Trump Tower, stopped hemorrhaging from my cyst, discovered a new love for canned pumpkin, watching way too much Grey’s Anatomy, found my Chanel glasses, found out my friend used to be a booker for some of the world’s top agencies and wants to send me to met them, and was just overall in a good, healthy, happy, rested place.

Also, on Sunday morning I woke up to snow! It was probably 6am and I looked out my window and it was white and untouched. I stuck my arm out the window and felt the snowflakes melt on my skin for a while before going back to sleep, it was amazing. By the end of the day the snow was gone, but it snowed the next day and 2 days after that, last night, etc. Than god for Sorrells.

view from my bed, yes, my bed.

my lovely, lovely loulou
Ugh, off to write like four 10-page papers. Gahhhh. Love to all.

Brrrr

It's now freeeeezing. Apparently it's typical East Coast weather for it to drop from 90 to 30 in a month. School's good, I'm not entirely inspired by my classes right now though, dealing with the standard freshman first semester system... Signed up for next semester though, probably going to take intro to journalism, intro to media, maybe world political economics if I can convince administration to let me into a junior level class, yoga, photography, Italian, another essay class, and calculus. I'm trying to load up my schedule for more structure then next fall I'm going to intern at Vogue or Bazaar or something of the sort.

I went to a suite at the Waldorf Astoria last Monday night, oh my god I'm pretty sure it was as big as two floors of my building. Absolutely spectacular and gigantic. -random picture from last weekend-
I'm sick. And I'm starting to miss home. Not so much home but walking around Madrona, getting alone time, and family. It's so different when the pace never drops. It's funny how when one person gets a cold it becomes an epidemic and EVERYONE catches it. We sit around sniffling and coughing, watching family guy, and laughing at our crazy nights out. It's kind of a joke (but actually is starting to seem true) that we're like men. It's soo messy here right now too, piles of everyone's stuff has accumulated around the dorm as well as random objects like a pink staff from someones (not any of ours) halloween costume and a random light up witch headband ended up on a hook on the wall above our tv. Ah home sweet home.

I registered for classes on monday morning, I have the best schedule for next semester. RIght now I'm taking 15 credits but I'll be taking 19 (the maximum). I'll be taking Italian 2, Buddhist Meditation and Yoga, Fashion Marketing at Parson's, Political Economy, Journalism, and a writing the essay class on our cultural obsession with food and the abundance/lack of it. It's pretty much perfect and then I'll be more focused on school without so much down time which has affected my sleep.

I know I'm out of touch too and I hate it. I still don't find the time to check my email, voicemail, or mail. But text messaging is incessant. I'm hoping to change that pattern though because I feel like an ass. Everyone who was so involved in my life really isn't right now and it makes me sad, but it's my fault. So *guiiiighhh* I'm sending my love telepathically.

Get hyped for the premier of Project Runway tonight eeeeee! Time to read Russian Literature...

Almost November

I'm getting too busy to update! I aways forget :( I have massive photos but not much to say except life is nuts. Dad and Paydn came last weekend and we had a great time bumming around the city and spending time together for Dad's 50th birthday. Went to Halloween party last night at a club our friend finances and he threw the party. It was so full you literally couldn't move and I kind of panicked haha. But I have massssive pictures from before we went. Gabby was the devil, Christina was a bat, and I was a dove/white bird creature thing, haha. and us in a nutshell... I seriously love these girls so much I also have random photos from my adventure with Christina a few weeks ago. We always wander around the city on the weekends and we found a million flea markets and cute little hole in the wall cafes and shops. and a random one from before going out last weekend. she finally got her camera chord and sent me these :)

I don't even know, I have to write a bunch of thesises (thesi?) and clean the apartment. LOVE TO ALL

I don't even know anymore.

I've had this entry saved for WEEKS now without posting it so I'm posting it now and updating tomorrow to... Alright, I'm officially living off of cough syrup, yogurt, and oatmeal. Food is to expensive here! $8 for frosted flakes? No way jose. I can't shake this hacking cough I've had since I got here. I heard that running 4 miles in the city is equivalent of smoking a pack of cigarettes in terms of what you do to your lungs... gross. Good thing I'm going to the doctor in an hour.

So last weekend I partied with T.I., Nelly, Busta Rhymes, Missy Elliot, Jermaine Dupree, and Alicia Keys... I don't even get my life right now. IT'S MORE FUN THAN I EVER THOUGHT POSSIBLE. My apologies to those I love in Sea-town, but I don't think I'm going to have a problem staying until Christmas.

I'm good at waking up at the crack of dawn though and doing my homework. Right now I'm writing a letter to Hilary Clinton about the NY Bottle Bill and next I'm putting together a presentation on Tolstoy’s “Kreutzer Sonata,” fun fun. I, along with Gabby and Christina, am having problems with my teachers feeling threatened by my background and tenacity.

I had my first experience of "oops I just slept though class" this week because I had a coughing fit all night and coughed straight through my alarm. That one was excused because I had gone to the doctor the day before though. I also managed to fall asleep in class last week and proceeded to hallucinate talk in my sleep


lots and lots of roomie love

whaaaaat?

loves of my life. literally. family.

basically every morning of the weekend.

anyhoooo it's been raining here, dumping buckets of cats and dogs and blowing me over when I'm trying to haul myself to and from class. Okay, I'm over exaggerating, it rained yesterday and it wasn't anything worse than Seattle, it's just the fact that walking a mile home in the rain isn't always the most exciting thing...

Brief update...

I just discovered the best way to take a nap here. If I close the doors to our rooms and turn off all the lights (regardless of what time of day it is) our living room is PITCH black. It's like an isolation room, I didn't even know it rained today because I was sleeping in my cave with Gabby on the couch.

First things first, SEND ME PHOTOS either printed or email them digitally. I started a wall of photos and it's so comforting to have images of the people I love right next to me when I sleep.

Anyways, it's still so hot here, like mid 70's to 80 every day. It gets a little muggy at night but I'm enjoying the warmth. The other day I went stir crazy and walked down Broadway and looped around Washington Park and got myself very, very lost with only a few minutes until my 12pm class. I made it on time luckily and the walk led me to now pick random (nice) areas of the city to explore before or after class so I don't get stuck in the monotony of Chelsea/Greenwich village.

Speaking of the village, celebrities are popping up all over my route to school. Christina ran into Ashley Olsen the other day and I saw Melina Kanakaredes from CSI NY with Gabby (not quite as exciting, I know).

I'm just getting over being sick, I had a roughhhh cough and ended up buying Robitussin and massive cough drops and kicking it. But it was hard to sleep since I don't sleep that well anyways and I ended up sitting on my couch at like 3am drinking cough syrup and being wide awake with no desire to climb back up Everest into my bed.

In my Garbage class I finally learned about why tuna has so much mercury we should be aware of and I swear I'll never eat Seafood again. Well maybe Alaskan Salmon, but I've been spoiled in Seattle. Acid rain is just disgusting, not to mention the pollution from those lovely middle America factories. I was the only one engaging with my Garbage teacher this week because I have so much knowledge about Garbage/Recycling etc but in terms of how I can help my home environment I was like, "But, but I'm from SEATTLE! It's so clean!" I had a total freak out the other night too when I woke up at 4 and all the lights were on and the faucet was going ploink...ploink...ploink. It gets so boring holding the discussions in class by myself, especially when other kids just rolled out of bed or simply don't know how to form arguments (regardless of whether it's their real opinion or not).

So not much new here except my rants. LOOOOVING life though I'm just genuinely happy with my life and I'm meeting so many amazing people every day. I can't wait for Halloween too, I'm already working on a costume, haha. Next post will have pictures too...

P.S. I got a little snobby with clubs and we decided we didn't want to go to this one club on monday night because the time before it sucked and guess who shows up? Paris Hilton. Go figure.

Happy one month anniversary to Gabby and I!

So I have officially been here for one month... and I love it. I know I should miss Seattle more, but honestly I don't. I miss my family so much, close and extended, especially Paydn. I neeeeed mah brutha. The whole dueling lives thing is a little bizarre because I feel like I live in two worlds and that Seattle doesn't exist right now. If I came home I wouldn't want to be there, but I'm sure that in another month I'll be crying for a plane ticket home.

There are so many silly niches and quirks to New York that you can either dismiss or appreciate. For example, you can smack the word "Gourmet" on any business you please. "Chelsea Gourmet" is nothing more than a mini mart that sells bananas and cigarettes and the streets are littered with these places. I still can't get over the smells, too. Just sitting outside reading today I went from smelling the most amazing, garlic-y, buttery aroma to an overload of rancid garbage in a mere second. It's hysterical and nauseating and I love it.

FYI I couldn't get onto my email this past week, not that I have checked it since August... But I'm going to attempt to sort through all of it and get back in touch.

Anyhoo, today Christina's dad drove up from Philly and went to Urban Outfitters and helped us pick up this sickkk sofa bed. So we cleaned the apartment head to toe and set it up so we don't have to sleep on the floor anymore.





I still feel spoiled, I'm eating so well. I doubt most college students are bringing home fresh fish, eggs, organic basil and raspberries, crisp vegetables and tons of Greek yogurt home from the grocery store. Ironically, whole foods is usually cheaper than the "regular" grocery stores. I had to stop into Utrecht today and buy paints and canvases. Not painting and/or writing (what I want to write) is making me feel like I'm drowning so I'm going to start painting again and when my classes are boring I just write and write and write. Speaking of classes, my sex and morality class is getting so much better. At first I just wanted to scream at the teacher, take over, and lead some REAL discussions. But now people are getting riled up and breaking through their comfort zones yayyy!

I walked to H&M with Christina last night and we stumbled upon a shoot for Law and Order SVU aka the best show ever. It was pretty neat but I'm kind of unfazed by seeing stuff like that now though. I also started watching Grey's Anatomy with Gabby because I'd so adamantly refused to watch it since it's so hyped up. Everyone's always like, "Grey's Anatomy is my life oh my god It's so good," and that just makes me NEVER EVER want to watch a show. But it's set in Seattle so all the little clips of I-5 make me so happy, and it's a good show. We also watched Life or Something Like It with Angelina Jolie as a weather woman for a fake komo station. It was raining this morning so we opened the windows and listened to the pattering of the rain while watching the movie, it was quite comforting.

Lastly, the other day I went canoeing in the Gowanus Canal in Brooklyn for my Garbage class. I wasn't too hyped on getting up and taking the subway to Brooklyn since I'd never been, but it was really fast and the canoe ride was shocking. This canal is the single most polluted canal in New York. It used to be a dumping site for Mr. Crapper's fabulous invention as well as NYC garbage. It's constantly bubbling and there are shopping carts sticking out of the water and at the dead end there's a trap where all this waste just piles up and there's a thick, swirling film all across the top. The canoe tour is through a non-profit organization that wants to clean up the Gowanus and make it like it was pre-pollution. Galley Bay sure prepped me because I took the lead with the canoe and taught other people how to canoe. I don't understand how you can live 18 years and never get in a canoe but that's just me. I felt like Pocahontas or Sacagawea but on a hunting mission.

Oh man, time to nap so I can go out tonight. MUCH LOVE.

Rain!

TODAY I WOKE UP AND ALMOST DIED WITH JOY! IT WAS RAININGGGG!!!!!!
Seriously, almost as good as Christmas when I was 5. Except that I was in class today and it started to thunder and lightning and it got really dark and I almost took a cab home it was raining so hard.

I'm in a funk because my classes aren't hard enough. SAAS prepared me a little too well... So I'm going to meet with my Advisor and the head of the Freshman class in an hour to add some more relevant classes to my schedule and drop a class in which the discussions are like banging my head into a wall. Then all will be well again.

I reallllly miss my Italian class too. I was in class the other day and we were pronouncing names and everyone took turns saying Cecelia (my old teacher's name) and I just about burst into tears. I just clutched my little Hoffner Fischer and Harvey pen and continued doodling mountains, rivers, and rain all over my paper.

The other morning we woke up really late and Gabby and I wanted sunlight so I pulled up the blinds and BAM there's a street fair going down 8th ave from 24th to 14th (we live in 20th).
view from our window

Christina got a candy apple from this women, said it tasted like crap and threw it away


The other night this building was glowing and I had to take a picture and the cabs were blurry and it just felt representational of the place I'm in right now. Even when I'm standing still everything is swirling around me at such a fast pace and there's all this beauty and excitement and it's all blending together.

EDIT: I'm such a spaz I thought that being able to see the Empire State Building from my bedroom window would be too good to be true... so wrong. I thought I was just looking at some regular sky scraper in New York, haha. It's quite comforting to see its glow every night. It was red, white, and blue for the 6th anniversary of 9/11.

and now some random pictures of roommate love:
doing our best impression of the olsen twins
we camp on the floor
wut?
almost bought these on the armadillo day but they were expennnnnsive

Oh god, I'm late.

Random Update

I'm so bummed, I found this AWESOME stuffed armadillo at the flea market a few days ago and didn't buy it and now I wish I had... he could be my pet :(

I got invited to a Fashion Week party for Zac Posen tonight but I don't have a fake ID to get into events like that so we're going to a different club.

I love New York. Even the mugginess. But I still freaking HATEEEEE living with people who believe that water is as good as soap for cleaning. It's quite frightening.

Walked through WA square to get some books a few days ago. I love the faux Arch De Triumph that was originally made out of paper mache and cardboard (in the 1800's)



It's quite exquisite and on one side is George Washington as President and the other side is him at war.

There are all of these beautiful alley's around Washington Square like this one:



The rent is insane but they used to be servants quarters for the wealthy families that lived in the mansions around the Square. If you open it up to full size you can see the carriage houses where they used to keep the horses (left side with stone awnings).

Okay here's a weekly schedule for future visitors/phone calls

Monday: 8:00-9:40 Writing the Essay: Sex and Morality 10:00-11:20 Italian

Tuesday: 12:00-1:40 Russian Literature

Wednesday: 8:00-9:40 Writing the Essay: Sex and Morality 10:00-11:20 Italian

Thursday: 8:00-9:40 NYC Garbage 10:00-11:30 First Year Workshop 12:00-1:40 Russian Literature

Friday: No classes

I'm bummed because I was trying to pick up "The Girl as Media Image" on Monday and Wednesday from 2:00-3:40 but it's totally full and possibly over-tallied so I'll take it next semester when I'm doing my internship.

Nothing else is really new except for I feel like I know everyone in the Chelsea/Meat-packing district/Greenwich Village nightlife scene. I feel a bit spoiled right now, maybe grateful is a better word because I live in a great, spacious apartment with Gabby (who I honestly don't know what I'd do without) and go to a school that is so well equipped with crazy interesting classes and can go out at night and still go to Central park during the day and lay in the grass and do my homework. I had no idea how much SAAS was going to prepare me for college. When my professors were going over the curriculum and expectations I was just like yep, uh huh, that's standard for me. Conner's policy's for English/Social Contract prepared me more than I gave her credit for.

Time for another nap and a snack before the Fashion Week craziness begins. From the beginning of this typing session to the end, plans changed. Oh life, I love you.

Apartment pictures

Last night I partied with the New York Giants at Arena NYC what the heckkkk. Dahhh what happened to my little seattle life? Living with the roommates.... sucks. In terms of cleanliness. I've turned into my mom and find myself doing ALL the dishes and scrubbing the counters and everything because "I can't make food in a dirty kitchen" just like her. Other than that it's so great and I love how everyone is so real and we all just hang out and the guys from down the hall just come in and out and bring their breakfast and we all just basically live together. We have american apparel and starbucks and blockbuster on the first floor of our building, it's so dangerous. the other morning I went to starbucks with gabby in my cotton nightgown with a hoodie, holding my ceramic pike place coffee cup. It's like I've lived here foreverrrr. gabby in the kitchen our room- post trying to find what to wear... my side...messy gabby's side...messier our temp set up until the couch comes. on the left is the hall to our bathroom middle door is to the triple, then our room view to the right center street to the left to the left I love Chelsea, it's so happening and it's crawling with super attractive, friendly, gay men and hipsters. More pictures to come when we get the couch and put up art, it's such a blank canvas still. Changed the layout so I can get comments, sorry for all the future crazy changes which are to come... <3

Week 1

I love New York. I swear to god time goes 100 times faster here. Every day flies by faster than the day before. Mom went home on Wednesday but I'm feeling like I've got the hang of things. Hauling a carpet and 2 pairs of shoes and 3 bags of groceries though Union Square etc

We went to the Cooper-Hewit Museum on Wednesday which is in this fantastic mansion of a railroad baron turned retired intellectual. One of the exhibits was that in the court-yard they put up all of the structures/temporary housing that are used all over the world in third-world countries and places like New Orleans after the hurricane. the exhibit had a lot of these with facts about everything from energy to medicine to illiteracy around the world The shelters and mom Central Park from the reservoir looking West seriously? who has the time? In the last few days I've discovered a ton more. First of all, we (my roommates and I) have a naked guy across the street who likes to cook naked in the middle of the night and unlike Friends he's not "ugly naked guy" he's been "hot naked guy". We have also been seeing Rachel (one of my best friends from SAAS) all the time because her NYU dorm isn't far at all so we're just a little pack and we're al full of love :) I've mastered the art of jay walking and not getting hit... and last Sunday we discovered the New York nightlife. Living in Chelsea it's great because it's basically the gay district of New York so going out or coming back with a pack of people always feels safe and the streets are always packed. The first night we went out I made friends with the right people and now we have an "In" wherever we want to go. Nice to have the option- once school starts going out will drop to the bottom of the priority list. But I love walking up past all the lines and getting in and having an amazing time dancing with all my girlfriends and meeting people. It's all about balance and trusting your gut. Anyways...

Celebrities spotted
Tim Gunn!
Jack Palance (oh wait mom, he's DEAD)
Marisa Tomei
Lily Cole (really famous model)
Mollie Sue from ANTM)
This was all in like 2 days too and now we're too into trying to get to orientations on time.

My schedule is:
First Year Workshop
Writing the Essay
NYC: Garbage: Political Economy and Ecology
Russian Literature: Love and its Genres
Italian

I think I'm good for first Semester but I want to pick up something else so I talked to people at the Lang newspaper "Inprint" because they need n advertising editor. Also, there are classes like "Lang at the Guggenheim" where you see how everything is selected and installed and are at the Guggenheim alllll the time and a class called "Remaking the Mega City: Controversies in NYC Planning Practices" which I hope to take eventually.

I found out I can get a dual degree by taking business classes at the graduate school Milano at the New School and getting an MA/BA combining business and writing (both mixed with fashion) and a focus on local societal/environmental issues as well as those in countries around the world. I talked to my advisor and I'm already excited about probably going to Verona one summer to live with an Italian family and study the culture and history. She also told me that I can get an internship at ANY place I want because of my school's reputation so come spring I may try to pick up something at a high-fashion magazine but I could also get one at the UN so the possibilities are endless.

Having a blog makes me feel like a HUGE narcissist. "Loooook what I've been doing!" Oh well, it is what it is and it's informative so yay. I MISS TREES/GRASS/LAKE/WATER/CLEAN AIR so much :(

P.S. the pictures expand when you click them, I'm going up upload the rest to Flickr soon, and I can't figure out why the comments thing doesn't work. Stay tuned <3

First few days in the city!

What an exhausting few days! Wednesday morning was terrifying- I woke up with a migraine but was able to take advil, drink water, sleep 10 more minutes and get rid of it with mind power. We flew in Wednesday night and moved into my "dorm" (which is really a suite-style apartment) in Chelsea on thursday morning. I never really realized how many things you need to live on your own which were so trivial before the move. So Gabby (my roomate who I have known/gone to school with since 7th grade) and I found out we were on the same flight a few days before Wednesday and when we got on the plane it turned out that we were all in the same row (her, her parents, sister, and me and Debra). We ended up taking a limo from Newark into Manhattan because between us we had over 20 bags, haha. Gabby and my bags the 'rents in the limo Me waiting for a cab thursday before moving day

All in all, I'm doing well. I miss everyone so much and miss Seattle but I'm also excited for my new life here. I AM scared, I can't lie, but I know once the craziness of the transition settles it will be amazing. Carrying supplies all over Manhattan is not the greates, especialy in muggy weather like this where it's misting but it's sticky and hot. Yesterday Debra and I got my laptop, which conveniently came with a free printer we carried for about 40 blocks (which includes getting lost in Greenwich village). My arms and legs are pretty sore.

Last night we went on a boat cruise that went around the coast and a man (in the microphone?) told us about the history of different buildings etc we could see from the water. We also got REALLY close to the statue of Liberty, which I had never seen before. She is phenomena! It's so funny to think about these amazing things around the world that seem to trite because they are over talked about or exploited but when you see them in real life your heart skips a beat.
Tonight we had dinner with the other SAAS kids that are in school in New York and their parent(s). It's so great to know that we have a family in the city. I have known most of them since sixth grade and we're all there for each other and care about each other so much. I thought it might be weird to see them but I was ecstatic that we met up and afterwards we found a place to buy inexpensive posters and I bought a John Lennon one and Gabby got a Warhol one.

My roomates are really sweet, the first night we sat down and made a list of the things we need and split up tasks. Space is respected (we'll see if it lasts) and we are all very into making our space cozy, relaxing, and personalized. Christine is from Chicago, Christina is from Philadelphia, and Liz is a transfer student from Minnesota. Also, Isobel (who Gabby has gone to school with since kindergarten) and went to High School with us lives in the suite next to us by total coincidence.

I'm getting used to the city already. I'd rather walk now since it's nice out so I've been exploring, today (after waking up laaaateI just wandered around while Debra was meeting a friend in Central Park and I felt really comfortable. I went to the Farmer's Market at Union Square and saw the insane masses of everything from tomatoes to blueberries to bread. It was quite a spetacle. I'm so longer shocked at the smell of urine when I'm walking around, I got used to sirens, cars bumping the base, partyers, and construction in the night, I've learned you can literally wear anything you want here and no one will think twice about its eccentricity.

I have more stories and pictures, will update soon with dorm pictures too. Love and miss everyone so much.

Seattle memories

Things I will miss about Seattle:

-Family
-Bart
-Bernardo and Eli (the boys I nannied)
-My bed :)
-Clean air
-My mail man
-Trees/mountains/lake/ocean
-Being able to actually drive downtown
-My homie at 711 who calls me kiddo
-The guys at Madison Park Wells fargo
-Madison Park
-Pike Place